| halo, what? |
[02 Aug 2009|11:30pm] |
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you make me nauseatingly happy.
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| let's give it a go! |
[23 Jan 2009|11:41am] |
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my brain is dead weight. [eminem?]
i must return to school immediately. as each semester comes along i get more and more restless.
but i've decided to not build on top of my degree. im going to start over. biology.
instead of working in a social service i'd rather be doing the technical - testing specimens, putting the puzzle together through science.
hopefully i can start as early as summer and squeeze in a class or two.
and my brain will start functioning again.
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| ...and darling |
[01 May 2008|03:50pm] |
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ive had it. after 2 very long days with a company that i find more and more unprofessional, ive applied to jobs that are within my field.
I really do feel that luck is on my side -- did i just jinx myself?
time will tell.
on a side note --
tonight im going out to a meditteranean place for dinner. it's part of the dining out, fight for life -- AIDS coalition. i really need to start volunteering again. for some reason, i love it. it makes me feel part of something, and in the same instance, im doing something good.
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| and boredom strikes again. |
[23 Mar 2008|01:51pm] |
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ONE WORD
1. Where is your cell phone? pocket.
2. Your significant other? uncle's.
3. Your hair? over - need a rockstar to cut it!
4. Your mother? off.
5. Your father? more off.
6. Your favorite thing? feelingaccomplished.
7. Your dream last night? null.
8. Your favorite drink? water.
9. Your dream/goal? successful.
10. The room you're in? cold.
11. Your ex? okay.
12. Your fear? large.
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? happy.
14. Where were you last night? steph's/catherine's.
15. What you're not? straight.
16. Muffins? need to be in the mood.
17. One of your wish list items? job. thats all i fucking want.
18. Where you grew up? here.
19. The last thing you did? drove.
20. What are you wearing? skinny jeans/hoodie.
21. Your TV? other room.
22. Your pets? dead.
23. Your computer? black.
24. Your life? stagnant
25. Your mood? gross.
26. Missing someone? never.
27. Your car? new!
28. Something you're not wearing? glasses.
29. Favorite Store? plato's.
30. Your summer? can't come soon enough.
31. Like someone? eh, she's alright.
32. Your favorite color? blues.
33. last time you laughed? the other day. it was one of those really hard ones. ha. love it.
34. Last time you cried? i was on the brink last night.
35. Who will/would re-post this? no one.
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| how do i get sucked into doing these? |
[27 Jan 2008|02:11pm] |
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1. Name and middle name?
Alexis -a non disclosed name-
2. What holiday is your birthday closest to?
St. Patrick's day.
3. Favorite flavored Pie?
im partial to the apple. how plain.
4. Does it bother you when someone says they will call you and they don't?
actually, yes.
5. Are you allergic to anything?
not that im aware of. actually no, i think i am to bananas. but still eat them and then have my mouth itch afterwards.
6. Is there something special you wanted for Christmas?
not really.
7. When was the last time you went swimming?
i put my feet in the pool, does that count as something?
8. Do you like cheesecake?
sometimes.
9. How many of the U.S. states have you lived in?
one.
10. Have you traveled outside the country?
was supposed to.
11. Do you keep a planner or calendar with daily events?
nope, just all up in the old noggin.
12. Does anyone like you?
i would hope boob does. ha.
13. Do you have any strange pets?
uh, no.
15. What did you do today?
tried to work this morning, but the truck wouldnt start. again, walking murphy's law right here.
16. Are you bipolar?
negative.
17. What is the main ringtone on your cell?
im bossy. ha
18. Where would you want to go on a first date?
a science museum.
19. When is the last time you were hugged?
last night.
20. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
no, and if that were to ever happen, i would seriously melt into the floor.
21. Have you ever bungee jumped?
nope.
22. Have you ever been white water rafting?
no.
23. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
dont think so.
24. Are you a cavity free kid?
no, but i can fake it.
25. Are you an extreme racist?
no.
26. What song are you listening to right now?
FINCH! i just found the cd.
27. What is your favorite song at the moment?
i have a current obsession with tegan and sara.
28. What was the last movie you watched?
the opposite of sex.
29. Where was the last house you went besides your house?
catherine's.
30. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
no.
31. Have you ever been punched?
slapped.
32. Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
nothing positive.
33. Can you open a beer bottle with a body part other than your hand?
not yet.
34. What do you usually order from Olive Garden?
soup and salad.
35. Say something totally random about yourself?
i have poor circulation. should i be worried about that?
36. Do you have an mp3 player?
yes.
37. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
dont think so.
38. Do you have freckles?
some here and there.
39. Are you comfortable with your height?
2 more inches would be nice, but im this is fine.
40. Do you love someone?
yes i do!
41. How tall are you?
5'5
42. Do you speak any other language other than English?
espanol un poco.
43. How do you like your steak cooked?
i dont like it at all.
44. Has anyone you were really close to pass.
yes.
45. Do you watch MTV?
occassionally
46. What is something that really annoys you?
as ironic as this sounds, communication issues. just say it already!
47. What is the best thing in your refrigerator right now?
i dont know whats in the fridge.
48. What is your favorite place to get take out?
lotus.
49. When is the last time you had professional pictures taken?
ha, highschool.
50. Do you have a crush on someone?
oh yes yes.
51. Does that person like you back?
i hope. ha
52. Do you drive when you go on long trips?
more than not.
53. Whats the latest you have ever stayed out?
i dont do the curfew thing really.
54. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
yeah, that was fun.
55. Ever been in a car accident?
nope.
56. Have you broken a bone or had stitches?
no, knock on wood!
57. Anyone on your mind right now?
there is always someone.
58. What color is your hair?
right now its between a light red and blonde. hot, i know.
59. What did you do last night?
connie mack's, pennent, fun.
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| iii'm backkk |
[18 Jan 2008|01:59pm] |
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that is correct, after being myspace-free for about a year, i have signed myself back up again.
dont ask what i was thinking, it just involved a bottle of three olives, fancy glasses, and coming up with brilliant ideas - such as going back on myspace. ha.
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| #1 pet peeve is... |
[27 Dec 2007|06:39pm] |
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i feel like my heart is about to jump out of my chest when i hear a cd continuously skipping. [especially the cd's that are my absolute favorite]
i've come to realize that i have little patience for finding a new job. i need to be more aggressive in that area. i cant do this retail shit anymore where they jerk you around everytime their numbers are down or something happens within the company. thank god i dont live on my own because if i did i would just have to turn around and come right back home.
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[03 Dec 2007|03:50pm] |
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why do i feel unaccomplished today?!
its driving me nuts, and putting me in a bad mood.
i need to sit and breathe.
im thinking of taking up yoga. my sister was talking to me about it and said it helps with the whole calming or some shit. i dont know, but want to try it.
...and good one!
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| if its not keeping you up nights, then whats the point? |
[15 Nov 2007|09:23pm] |
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you know, watching eternal sunshine after 2 years of refusing, still makes me want to throw myself out of a window, in the good way, of course. thats a big HA!
that one part just KILLS me! actually no, two parts.
[thats all i have to say about that]
AND...
on a side note:
im on a roll of change.
i got new glasses b/c i lost my other ones.
and im contemplating...
to dye my hair or to not dye my hair.
the positive is that it is getting colder, so i feel that i need darker hair. [you know, justification]
but i finally did grow out all of the color, and will now feel i did that for nothing but to recolor it again and ruin it. hmm.
decisions, decisions.
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| - game plan - |
[01 Nov 2007|11:50pm] |
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it's been one hell of a week.
tonight im going to finish cleaning my room since it looks like a bomb hit it,
put pictures in my photo album, and pay bills.
tomorrow im going to the gym to get out all my frustrations, ha - okay, some of my frustrations, if im aiming for all, i may be there for a while - take ashley to work, do inventory, and go to sleep.
saturday is errands day. Ikea, Old Navy, Cingular, or should i say AT&T, and South Street.
Next week Im planning on NY, and forgetting about anything that is annoying me right now. Lets hope its going to be nice out.
I love how i have to use every ounce of free time i have with errands and stuff that i should be doing on a regular basis. I NEED balance.
I was wondering today how people that work 5 days/40 hr. work week have time to work, go to the gym, go food shopping and run all over creation and not go insane. I came to the conclusion that they most likely dont sleep.
Its only going to get more fun. The other night i looked up classes at ccc, and i think im going back, just for one class though. i figure that i shouldnt waste the spanish classes i took at tcnj, and am going to have a minor in spanish. it will most likely benefit me, and its only 6 classes or so. i need find time to talk to an advisor. -- hey look, another thing i have to find time for. i see a running theme going on here....
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can someone tell me when the hell it is going to get cool out and not be gross and muggy. its the middle of october! im ready to wear long sleeves!, not walking around in shorts and a t-shirt in my house cleaning, and trying to stay cool.
the world is ending. im convinced.
on a side note:
im sort of excited for this weekend. and you ask why? not really doing much, however, im not going to be on a time clock. im off from work until monday, and i wont have to cram errands in a 2 hour block of time when regularly it would take like five.
in short, i can be an old lady and bake, go walking, run here and there, and not have to look at a watch. YES!
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| something positive, for once. |
[12 Oct 2007|12:37am] |
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People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may just never be enough;
Give the world the best you have anyway.
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| in hell, aka work. |
[29 Sep 2007|10:43am] |
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i really really never want to drink again.
never.
after 6pm i plan on taking a nap, getting c bird, and watching a movie.
im so over.
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1. What did you do last night?
At the shore, drank some beer, got a terrible stomachache, and threw up anything my stomach could find for about 7 hours. nice, right?
2. Who was the last person you called?
my work to call out.
3. What does the 5th text on your phone say?
my phone is in the other room.
4. When was the last time you thought about sex?
daily.
5. When was the last time you got hurt?
last night, but i think i was being emotional.
6. When was the last time you cried?
last night, but it was more of a whining and yelling at my stomach.
7. When was the last time you lost something?
i lose things everyday, but the only thing i can think of is my wallet.
8. What are you listening to right now?
um, jt futuresex.lovesound. loser.
9. Why did your last relationship end?
communication, and im working on it, really.
10. What bothers you the most about the opposite sex?
you name it. ugh.
11. Where was the best date you've ever been on?
i would have to say drive-in.
12. What was the first thing a guy/girl bought for you?
probably some goof thing b/c im a sucker.
13. Do you date more than one person at once?
now, define date...im going to go with a yes, but at the moment - no.
14. What was the last movie you watched?
strangers with candy.
15. What was the last t.v. show?
4 hours of the news from last night/this morning. ask me anything about headline news or the weather for the tri-state area...
16. What do you want for your b-day?
a car with a working gas gauge.
17. What are you doing tonight?
unpacking, cleaning, watching little miss sunshine, FINALLY after owning it for months, and probably going to bed really early.
18. When will be the next vacation?
ASAP. hopefully key west.
19. How do you feel right now?
weird, and physically sick.
20. Who do you think will take this next?
probably no one b/c i dont think many read this.
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| and you were doing so good. |
[17 Jun 2007|06:05pm] |
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after a really good week i think im slowly starting to lose it again and unravel. i really should stay away from that website that ruins people's lives. what is wrong with me. and no, i dont need an answer for that.
you know back a few entries where i tried to convince myself that moving wasnt the answer. i've come to the conclusion that yes, may, and i think in this situation IS the answer. im so bored here. [hm, running theme in my life, maybe?] the point is there is too much history here, too much tip toe-ing around. im tired of not going places b/c im afraid to run into people. i shouldnt even care. they dont. but i think moving would be good in other ways too. what are those other ways, you ask? i realized last night that im extremely spoiled. i like to think im independent, but when you are constantly pampered, then no, you are not. and i also realized that i really like cities and want to move to one. maybe not to live in one my whole life, but for the time being, i think it would be a fantastic experience. i woke up this morning in philly, and walked outside and it put me in the best mood. one would be thinking, okay that gets old -- really fast. yes, probably, BUT its an experience. and im all about experiences right now. and right now im also all about forgetting the past, which probably sounds stupid, but i hold on to things, way too fucking much. like WAY too much. and its starting to make me a little sick and piss me off b/c you know, really, does anyone ever mean what the really fucking say. and ill answer that with a BIG FAT NO.
and im stopping b/c i just lost my train of thought. i may be returning to this later, im sure i have more to say. how the hell did i make it through school. god.
so here we go, new start, positive thinking.
[never thought you would see a little hopeful star now, would you? ha]
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| missing something. |
[09 Jun 2007|06:27pm] |
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first time in 3 days that im totally alone.
this could get interesting.
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| and at this point... |
[14 May 2007|03:52pm] |
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so, im a college graduate [almost]. I have to do one more paper thats due at the end of july or so and i will then receive my diploma.
i can breathe, finally. i decided to congratulate myself and went on a drinking binge this weekend. needless to say, i had fun.
and as absurd as this sounds, i think i may go back to school. and not for a masters but for biology b/c i really think i would like it. and i could combine the criminal justice and bio and maybe work in some sort of forensics field. i dont know, maybe i just dont want to get a real job.
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| spring2007semester = hell |
[09 May 2007|09:56pm] |
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if i get through this semester and pass ill...actually i dont know what ill do, ill just be happy.
i should get back to studying. i have so much to get done. i think ill write a list. those always [never] seem to help.
take a deep breath, and go.
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